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jamie6818 @ 2005-09-15T14:18:00

2005-09-15T18:19:17Z

peek a boo ...

jamie6818 @ 2005-06-08T00:36:00

2005-06-08T04:36:40Z

jamie6818 @ 2005-05-25T15:08:00

2005-05-25T19:11:07Z

this is so pathetic, i had to write it share it and further humiliate myself:

-exerp from my journal: Tuesday February 24th, 1998 9:36 PM --
"I wish I could write 4-eva(with a crossed out 'r' after it). It feels like I have some1 that understands me to talk to. ... I think thats what it'll be like when i get a boyfriend."

HAHAHAHAHAHA. GOD I WAS/AM SO LAME!!!! HAHAHAHA. Laugh at me, please!

oh, and i'm home!

jamie6818 @ 2005-05-22T22:16:00

2005-05-23T02:29:46Z

i think the biggest thing i've learned this year is this:

sometimes it's better to hold your tongue, but sometimes other people just really need to learn when they are wrong. a balance of concession and [whatever the antonym of concession is] are very important in order to maintain one's own sanity and to control other people's self-centered ignorance.

also, i am proud of the ideals that i choose to follow and i approve of the way i conduct myself. i met a whole new bunch of people this year and i feel that i have treated them in the way that i want to treat people. basically, there's nothing i feel guilty for and i know i have been a friend to the best of my abilities, and most importantly, in the way i feel a friend should be.

i know who i am.

i did it!

2005-05-19T17:53:57Z

yesterday was the last day of classes (finally) and so i'm unofficially done with freshman year! i just got back from the dining hall and that makes me so excited to go home. its amazing how badly i need something good to eat. once i get fully nourished though, im sure i'll miss this place like crazy. this summer at home is going to be excellent-- so it'll be good at the start since i want to be home now, good while its happening since there's so much to do, and good at the end since i'll want to come back. i cant think of anything better.
kev and i went to see Hitchhiker's last night. it was pretty good. he was giggling the entire time due to his deep connection with the manically depressed robot. we decided that we're going to buy that movie theater. it probablly cost $100, so it wont be a problem. then we discussed all the stuff we've learned this year and how much we've changed. it was good to reflect-- i liked it. then i slept, which ive been doing a lot of lately. its worth it though cause right now i feel great.
now the only thing left to do is ace my finals. i have physics review in 1/2 an hour. i love physics, its my boy, and i think that being an engineer is the best decision to make in that situation. ha.

home to manalapan in 7 days!

jamie6818 @ 2005-05-18T17:15:00

2005-05-18T21:17:54Z

The Impossibles! --we're really good at being bad--

jamie6818 @ 2005-05-17T10:20:00

2005-05-17T14:42:00Z

honestly, i've been dying to update this thing lately, but i always get busy....and by busy i mean busy sleeping. heh. that's partially true. so let's see, everyone is home and i'm still at school. i'll be home in 8 days. i'm excited to go home because i need to start making money again and i need to start eating again. the food here is terrible and i cant believe that i have to live on campus again and eat crap for another year. and obviously, i cant wait to hang out with my friends and my parents too. last summer was EXCELLENT and im sure it'll be hard to top, but im even more sure we'll try.
so as the year winds down and finals approach us, i have a really bad hurty cough because i have to get sick at the most inconvenient times. speaking of sick, this weekend was a lot of fun. i went out to like 5 different parties completely sober on friday. i had a good time, suprisingly. on saturday, i drank for possibly the last time EVER and threw up everything-- disasterously. i had toilet water hair and everything. then i was really hungover all day sunday, but whatever, i partied my last normal college freshman weekend. sunday was also the survivor finale and i was glad to sit in front of a TV for 3 hours and watch it. all in all, i thought the weekend was excellent. it made me feel better about a lot of things that im really glad i got cleared up in my head before i left.
yesterday was the last monday of classes. my finals shouldn't be too bad but i really need to get 100s on them. seriously, i need a 4.0 this semester and im not sure if im gonna get that or not. anyway, yesterday was the intramural softball championship- and we won!! we're the best intramural softball team in the shittiest division! haha. seriously though, it was great to play. im definitly the worst player on the team but i had so much fun and im pretty sure were gonna all play again next year. there's some pictures of us around in our supercool teeshirts. i'll post one when i find one. we're gonna be on the ud intramural website! yay!
someone is listening to NSYNC outside in the parking lot really loudly.
so there's my long awaited post, ill be home next wednesday!

jamie6818 @ 2005-05-11T05:19:00

2005-05-11T09:22:15Z

so its a little past 5 in the AM, and i've been up for around an hour. why? who knows. maybe because life hates me and wants me to fail at it, or maybe because i sleep like a watchdog. anyway, now i dont know what to do since sleep obviously isnt happening and its 5AM so theres not much to do.

jamie6818 @ 2005-05-10T15:39:00

2005-05-10T19:40:17Z

nervous breakdown in
5
4
3
2
1...

wah

2005-05-05T18:12:16Z

i'm skipping class so i can start to study for physics. however, i doubt that any studying will be done unil after said class would have been over. so whatever. i've been stressed beyond belief this week, but honestly, i'm kind of proud that i made it throught without wanting to give up or freaking out. statics has been a real pain in the ass lately. the homework takes forever, and half as many problems would suffice. i really want an A in that class, but i slacked off a little bit before the last test resulting in a 76. when i say last i mean most frequent and last before the final, so that means that i need to study for all eternity for the final and get somewhere close to 100 on it. even then, i dont know if i'll get an A because homework has been kicking my ass lately. oh well. i've really changed this semester in terms of work, and i can settle for an A-. no Bs though. i've been doubting myself for the past two weeks due to all the stress- that maybe i'm not cut out for engineering. i keep telling myself that there are always going to be people better than you, and you will be better than some people, and if you work to the best of your ability then you'll have nothing to regret. i've been looking for something to work for for a long time, and this has filled the gap. i've just got to keep going because this is something i'm more than capable of doing and in the long run, it'll be so rewarding.

yep.

i gave advice yesterday. i feel like its been a long time since then. the best part was, the problem was not saturated with 'bullshitries', but actual important stuff. important in the sense that the issue will be prevalent for a long period of time in the game of life. it was a good time.

im dragging this out ... and like i said, i have to study.

jamie6818 @ 2005-05-03T00:53:00

2005-05-03T04:53:21Z

like it!! courtesy of my creative mind and the boy's skillz.

funnier: the actual clam or a can of new england clam chowder?

jamie6818 @ 2005-05-02T13:29:00

2005-05-02T17:40:48Z

i think livejournal is remarkable. i'm truly impressed by a lot of things. perhaps i'll get to contribute in the future, hm? wouldn't that be nice.

as for this post, i'm just bored and waiting for my laundry to finish being washed. then i have physics discussion at 2:30, where i will take a 4-question quiz. i won't know how to do at least 3 of them, and then make the kind of guesses where you get some arbitrary number and then pick the answer closest in value to it. so far so good. the downside to this is that i have a physics test at the end of the week. a high grade, which i'm going to calculate when i'm done with this sentence, will ensure that i receive an A in this 4-credit class thereby increasing my chances of having a 4.0 GPA this semester and bringing my cumlulative GPA above a 3.0. this would be nice, as well.

it seems strange that everyone will soon be at home with a [or another] completed year of college behind them. i, however, have 3 more weeks of school but will return home soon after...probably completely different from when i left. seriously, what an experience this year has been. i left for UD feeling almost opposite of how i feel today, and the change has been for the better. i hope this will be a productive summer.

shall we make a list? i dedicate this list to cyd, the master of list-making.

Hopefull Summer Accomplishments:
1. work hard and profit greatly
2. exercise so my bathingsuit looks beyond decent
3. pass chemistry and not let it interfere too much
4. read some good books / watch some good movies
5. have fun!

i didn't expect to write this much, but it has efficiently wasted the right amount of time.

sigh

2005-04-28T13:51:08Z

it's thursday. this week has been close to terrible.
1. i couldnt register for brookdale online, causing me to inconvience my mom and have her drive to B-dale to register for me. i got the last seat in the lesser-evil class, which means that me and marissa aren't going to be lab partners, or carpool.
2. my schedule for next semester sucked, and then i found out a class i wanted to take WASNT ACTUALLY BEING OFFERED EVEN THOUGH IT WAS IN THE FUCKING REGISTRATION BOOKLET. so then i decided i should take an elective. i hate electives. i switched a few things around and thought, so the amount of suckage decreased. i found an elective called "Philosophy of Science" that WOULD have been perfect except....it WASNT ACTUALLY BEING OFFERED EVEN THOUGH IT WAS IN THE FUCKING REGISTRATION BOOKLET. 0 for 2. So now i have to get up earlier than i want to and take HISTORY AND GOVERNMENT OF DELAWARE, which i deem cool/lame. alternatively, i might take a theater class with kev that my aunt teaches. i emailed her just to make sure it was okay since we're related and she hasnt emailed me back and schedules are due tomorrow.
3. this is the big one. julie, amy and i got FUCKED by housing. its almost indescribable. to shorten the story, we were offered the last triple on campus -- and its in a smoke and alchohol free dorm on an ALL GIRL FLOOR. also, its the farthest room away in the farthest building on the green. i just hope the boys end up on S.Green too. BUT OH WAIT, delaware has to push back their deadlines and make everyone wait for their stupid asses. i bet i could start a nice uproar if i refused to turn something in on time in accordance with practices of the university. ::manical laugh::
4. i had a crazy-ass dream about saving my family from crazy gnome things that came up from this hole in the ground that i caused to be there. it was insane and scary, let me tell you. this really isn't a point; i was just thinking about it.

class now...and then 3 more weeks of it.

jamie6818 @ 2005-04-25T09:26:00

2005-04-25T13:27:58Z

my whole day just got FUCKED in the matter of seconds. AARGHH!!

fucking MSEG302
fucking Brookdale
@(#HGFHEROU$#$*#@$YER

actually this one's a little better....

2005-04-21T19:59:27Z

jamie6818 @ 2005-04-21T15:39:00

2005-04-21T19:44:22Z

fuck. i definitly just fucked up a very important test. oh well, go me for choosing not to study.
i just looked up the crap i thought i screwed up, and i was right in what i though. im sure i did something wrong though. just because. fucking 3-Dimensional rods on paper. they seriously need to invest some money into some 3D teaching supplies. learning 3D on paper hurts my head.

this is for amy, but you may find it funny too.

i am enjoying updating my livejournal

2005-04-18T16:06:09Z

indeed.

yesterday my parents came and they were excellent, as usual. we went to the 5 and 10 and GrassRoots, and they were like kids in a candy store. my dad wanted to buy this $50 UD jersey, but it was retarded, so we wouldnt let him but he was really pissed. i got some SWEET EARINGS and i got amy the alternate pair (cause she's my alternate). i also got a new bag, a cool shirt, and some other 5 and 10 crap. i love the 5 and 10. its crap paradise. then we went out to dinner at Border Cafe (mexican). the rents got margaritas and my dad asked for an extra shot of tequila on/in his. he's the man. we had a good dinner, and then they left. they're so fucking awesome. they really wanted kev to com he out with us, which made me really happy, but he had to sit inside and play video games and then go to quiznos with parker. obvioulsy, cause you cant do that everyday, buddy. just kidding!! eh...

today, though anticipated suckage, was totally awesome. 'the impossibles'(we) had our first 2 intramural softball games. we totally dominated and we had so much fun. kevin is an AMAZING ATHLETE and all of us worked SOOOO well together as a team, it was unbelievable. we could have played 20 games in a row we were all loving it so much. i did a little catching with laura (we alternated).

wow so i wrote all that yesterday, and now its today. so i guess i should post now.

im 19! or 18 part 2! thanks to everyone who IMed or called, etc. <3

from my prince: Happy Birthday Princess. You are a wonderful woman, somone I truly admire and love, in the truest and most genuine of ways. I hope your birthday is as incredible as you are.

from donny: i would've emailed you a happy birthday when it struck midnight but that'd
be silly, it wasn't your birthday there.
but now i can. happy birthday jamie.
um thats about all i have
i'm not inventive at 8 in the morning
oh wait, here's something interesting. i added more pictures, like the
ones from my bday. you can check them out whenever you feel like it
i was def drunk but was not an ass
oh and my friend natalie read your journal (a lot i think cuz she
mentioned stuff from like a while ago) and said she loved it. i thought it
was a tad wierd that she did, but she said you had the coolest things to
say.

cheers jamie.
love,donny

:)

jamie6818 @ 2005-04-18T01:10:00

2005-04-18T05:11:17Z

i am in love with kevin t. "the phantom" mcmanus and there's nothing you can do about it!
AND ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! MOTHAFUCKASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1.

a few things to say

2005-04-17T15:05:06Z

1. my journal is for ME to vent in. i dont get mad at people but it takes me some time to cool down when things upset me, depending on the situation. when i woke up saturday morning, more venting was needed.
2. if i had something to say to you, i would. therefore, reading things in my journal and getting pissed off about them is useless.
3. the example was a supporting point of the fact that i hate MY PERSONAL birthday and why they all suck so much and not to say that i hate my friends, which i dont, and it clearly says that anyway.
4. no one should even be offended unless you are the creator of birthdays. and in that case, i hate you. and come here so i can tell you to your face.
5. i only write this because i actually give a shit about certain people. they were mean, i got upset and therefore formed my thoughts about birthdays through my anger, and wrote about it. nothing to worry about unless there were other reasons for the meanness that i dont know about.

i guess thats it. todays going to suck, and so will tomorrow! DUH! haha.

go to hell

2005-04-16T15:14:04Z

here is my tirade. i hope you find it enlightening. i hate holidays and i especially hate birthdays because they are bullshit. the festivites done at the time of each holiday is so outrageous, that i cant believe that more people dont object to GIVING PRESENTS BECAUSE JESUS WAS BORN, AND EATING CANDY BECAUSE HE DIED, etc. i think the holiday thing is pretty self-explanitory, but perhaps the birthday thing isnt.

simply, by this time in your life, it is not a big accomplishement that you lived another year. i agree that is important to acknowledge that you were born, and that people wishing you happy birthday is an acceptable form of this. again, gift giving is completely bogus. it was pointed out to me that people LIKE to give other people presents, but you know you don't. you might like buying like one or two people some useless crap, and they might like getting things from you. but in every other case youre like "FUCK i have to go to the fucking mall and buy somebody i dont even know a present, and spend my hard earned $22 on something that in the end, they probably wont use or they'll hate." awesome. then theres guilt. if people dont like what you gave them, then they dont know what to do with whatever it is you gave them and they feel bad that you wasted your time and money. first 5 years of your life, go ahead and celebrate. you're small and innocent and you should party about not being dead. then, perhaps again when your 10 and ever 10 years after that. honestly, once you're 10 years old, is living another year anything to celebrate? once you've got another 10 down, thats impressive, celebrate. once you're towards the end of life, celebrate all you want because living is an accomplishment you should be proud of. i think im done here.

time to get personal.
yesterday was one of THE WORST DAYS i've had in a LONG TIME. my friends made me cry in order to get me a birthday present. i cried the entire night just so they could get me a fucking birthday present which i am OPPOSED to anyway. i might be more furious about this than ANYTHING EVER, but im also upset by the fact that no one will fucking listen to me. my parents, after 18 years of my insanity, have finally given up and i love that so much. it means so much to me. i couldnt really expect my friends here not do anything, but as i said yesterday, i wish someone would take me seriously. it seems to be that you do whatever the birthday person wants, and while some people may like the tradition, this is what i want and i wish the same standards apply.

i would have perfered not wanting to kill myself yesterday over....hmm...ANYTHING. let me clarify that i AM greatful for my friends and i am glad that they care about me, but i just feel like something was missed if gift-getting resulted in tears.

in conclusion, i can now add yesterday to the list of terrible days associated with my birthday, even though i tried really hard to have a good one this year. i guess i can always get started on next year, fucking shit.

jamie6818 @ 2005-04-15T14:22:00

2005-04-15T18:26:37Z

beh. making ramen. the epitome of college.
i didnt go to my classes today in hopes that i would due some work and stop feeling so stressed. i did a little, but ended up going back to sleep. i finally left the building to go get some graded papers that dont count for anything, which really pisses me off. then i overheard people talking about monday, and when i confronted them, they lied to me. the lying is understandable, but i don't know why people dont take me seriously. its frustrating and its really stressing me out. perhaps i will do some work tonight, and that'll make me feel better. parents tomorrow.
time to sir in ramen powder.

jamie6818 @ 2005-04-13T18:58:00

2005-04-13T23:17:37Z

i'm in a good mood. amy pointed out that i'm seemingly never in a good mood, but that's not true. i'm just not outwardly anything, but i'm happy.
last night was another FANTASTIC hockey game featuring the UD Drunken Clams. Parker plays in this random men's league (although there are girls in the league) and his team is basically all UD kids. last night they played the team that is composed of retired piece of shit cops. they lost, as the usually do against the cops, but they made an awesome comeback to only loose by one at the end. me and kev have been to every game this semester, i think. its just great. i get to scream and be with my boy, and cheer on my friend and and a whole bunch of people i dont know, but have nicknamed. then theres stan the pirate, kevin the cowboy, and homeless dan on the sidelines screaming with us. i hope parker keeps playing cause going to his games are one of my favorite things to do at college. THEY MAKE ME COMFORTABLE. lol.
really a good time last night, seriously.
i stayed up a little later to help kev with his schedule and woke up a little early to shower. went to math, handed in my lab that doesnt count cause math is a joke, and then layed out in the sun hanging out with rick for a while. physics came and it was announced that the class average for the test was a 54.5%. crap. so he's going to curve it 10 percentage points. good if you did bad, great if you did ok to begin with. so julie and i go to get our tests after class. FUCK YES, we are AWESOME. i got a 91, and she got a 96 (cause she's julie... but i did better than her on the 1st exam so it's ok). i feel so good about this damn test, i dont know why, i normally dont get too worked up over grades. i guess i'm trying really hard nowadays. i want to get a 4.0, seriously. its funny cause i actually might do it. i suprise myself sometimes. i think i dont care, but i do, but i dont, its weird.

i love engineering.

potential sched for next semester:

Monday:
10:10 - 11:00 MEEG215 Mechanics of Solids
11:15 - 12:05 MATH351 Engineering Math I
1:25 - 2:15 MEEG101 Intro to Mechanical Engineering Lab
5:00 - 7:00 MEEG215 Mechanics of Solids Lab

Tuesday:
11:00 - 12:15 MEEG215 Mechanics of Solids Discussion
12:30 - 1:45 MSEG302 Materials Science for Engineers
3:30 - 4:45 MEEG211 Dynamics

Wednesday:
10:10 - 11:00 MEEG215 Mechanics of Solids
11:15 - 12:05 MATH351 Engineering Math I
3:35 - 4:25 MEEG101 Intro to Mechanical Engineering Lecture

Thursday:
12:30 - 1:45 MSEG302 Materials Science for Engineers
2:00 - 3:15 MEEG211 Dynamics
3:30 - 4:45 MEEG211 Dynamics

Friday:
10:10 - 11:00 MEEG215 Mechanics of Solids
11:15 - 12:05 MATH351 Engineering Math I
1:25 - 2:15 MEEG101 Intro to Mechanical Engineering Lab

excellent

2005-04-12T20:29:13Z

http://www.cnn.com/2005/SHOWBIZ/Music/04/12/bush.ipod/index.html

Bush bares soul with 'iPod One'

By CNN's Peter Wilkinson
Tuesday, April 12, 2005 Posted: 4:20 PM EDT (2020 GMT)

(CNN) -- The music tastes of U.S. President George W. Bush have come under scrutiny after an aide revealed the playlist of his new iPod player.

The portable digital device, given to Bush by his daughters Jenna and Barbara last July, contains much country music, but also songs by Joni Mitchell, Van Morrison and the Knack.

The MP3 player, which can store up to 10,000 songs, only contains about 250, according to the New York Times, which first reported the story.

"iPod One," as the player has been dubbed, is used by Bush while he pedals around his Texas ranch on a mountain bike, presidential media adviser Mark McKinnon told the newspaper.

The task of downloading the music falls to the 58-year-old president's personal aide, Blake Gottesman, who buys individual songs and albums from the iTunes music store.

Not every track is "on-message." The playlist -- regarded by many as a mirror to the soul -- includes musicians who campaigned against Bush, such as John Fogerty. Also on the iPod is the 1979 song "My Sharona" by the Knack, about a man pursuing a much younger woman.

One of that song's lyrics, "Such a dirty mind. Always get it up for the touch of the younger kind," prompted Spin magazine editor Dave Itzkoff to comment: "This wouldn't be consistent with Bush's image as protector of conservative values."

Bush, who quit drinking after his 40th birthday, also listens to recovering alcoholic George Jones, a country singer who sings about heartbreak and drinking. Joe Levy, deputy editor of Rolling Stone magazine, said this indicated "a little bit of taste for hard core and honky-tonk."

McKinnon advised though against too much analysis of the playlist. "The fact is that any president who would limit themselves to pro-establishment musicians would have a pretty slim collection.

"No one should psychoanalyze the song selection. It's music to get over the next hill," he told the New York Times.

The playlist does reveal a rather narrow range of babyboomer tunes. Writing in the London Times, Caitlin Moran noted: "No black artists, no gay artists, no world music, only one woman, no genre less than 25 years old, and no Beatles."

Levy agreed, telling the New York Times: "What we're talking about is a lot of great artists from the '60s and '70s and more modern artists who sound like great artists from the '60s and '70s.

"This is basically boomer rock 'n' roll and more recent music out of Nashville made for boomers. It's safe, it's reliable, it's loving. What I mean to say is, it's feel-good music. The Sex Pistols it's not."

burning eyes..

2005-04-09T22:45:45Z

it's been a nice day so far. amy, julie, kev and i basked in the sun for a while and kev and i are sufficiently burt. we need it though. rubber chickens show in a little while. i'm really tired for some reason (cause i'm always tired). i think it's because my eyes are killing me due to swelling from allergans and lack of allergy medication. ah, oh well.
last night we all went to this 4 hour acapella thing. it was called DELAC and all the acapella groups on campus performed. this happened to be a fundraiser to build a school for these children in south africa. this guy, who looks like jesus, is in one of the groups, and organized this entire enormous thing, went to SA over winter session and saw this shack that was suppose to be a school for these little kids. he found out that it would only take about $4000 to make them a school, and last night during the show, it was raised. this guy's dream just became reality, just like that. the last song they sang was his- he sang a U2 song. i think its called "walk on" or "give peace a chance". i bet you can figure it out. so the end is them saying "give peace a chance" over and over. and while he's singing, EVERYONE from the entire production came out on stage and sang with them. so you gotta picture this guy who looks like jesus singing "give peace a chance" with like 100 other people backing him up and you're just thinking about these little south african children trying to survive aids and get a little knowledge.

it was totally worth 4 hours.
and i shed a happy tear for joey the jesus look-alike.

funny shit

2005-03-30T16:40:52Z

thanks amanda.

it's perfect.

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